Well, it's been about a month and a half or so since my brother passed away. The more time that passes the harder it gets. It's weird, but at first it seems devestating and you think that it can't get much worse but as time passes, it really starts to sink in that you cannot see them again... at least not in this life.
I started playing poker again to try to get some of my life back to normal. In a way, I almost feel guilty trying to not think of him all the time. But, life goes on and he would want me to go on as well.
Since my mental state has not been in the best of shape recently, I thought it might be wise to play lower level party poker tournaments so I could afford to slack a little. I decided to play the $10 and $20 SnG's to see how I would do. I started with a $50 dollar bankroll and since moved it to $400 in 2 days.
Not bad... then it dawned on my foggy head.
Well, if I could turn a consistent profit at lower levels, then why not make it easier on myself and play them more. So I decided to play 2-3 tables at once and have been able to squeeze an average of $80-$100 dollars a day. The skill level drops quite a bit lower level so maybe I need to stay here for a while until I feel normal again.